So this week I’ve been asking for feedback on my blog posts,
and in response, I was issued a CHALLENGE. This post is to only be about positive things. Before my friend issued me with this task,
he warned me not to ‘get mad, okay?’ I suppose because requesting a more
positive outlook implies that my posts up until now have been negative and bad. I didn’t get mad. I readily accepted this momentous challenge, because, in all
truthfulness, I know that’s exactly what it will be. And I’m interested to see
if I can do it. Literally. My mum gave me a similar mission 5 or 6 years ago,
when she said that if I (then her sullen teenage daughter, complete in purple
lipstick, netted sleeves and chains clinking as I walked, like an eerie gothic
morris dancer) gave up insulting her for lent, she would reward me in cash. I
think I responded with some derisive comment about how having to buy politeness
and respect must be quite a low point for her, thus forfeiting almost
immediately (Sorry Mum). So never before have I actually tested whether my
brain is capable of just, like,
giving the verbal thumbs up to stuff that is good. No sarcasm or abuse included.
I’m genuinely intrigued to find out.
I also think this will be a healthy exercise for me while I’m over here, as I’m conscious of becoming one of those horrible expats that just sing the praises of their homeland, and never shut up about where they’re from to the point where you just want to tell them to go home. And I DEFINITELY don’t want to come back one of them nationalists, ew. So here goes. These are some things I have noticed in New York, which are just good in and of themselves, and deserve no scorn on my part. Things that have brought me nothing but enjoyment and happiness, and deserve some recognition:
I also think this will be a healthy exercise for me while I’m over here, as I’m conscious of becoming one of those horrible expats that just sing the praises of their homeland, and never shut up about where they’re from to the point where you just want to tell them to go home. And I DEFINITELY don’t want to come back one of them nationalists, ew. So here goes. These are some things I have noticed in New York, which are just good in and of themselves, and deserve no scorn on my part. Things that have brought me nothing but enjoyment and happiness, and deserve some recognition:
Good Things About New York
- The number of people begging on the subways: I know a lot of them are trying to fund drug habits etc etc., and regardless of whether they are or not, it’s depressing to see these real life reminders of the level of poverty and homelessness in the city, all met with silence and disdain. But as I watch them all go by, I get some twisted satisfaction to know that before the Wall St bankers can return to their uptown apartments, they have to come face to face with their antithesis. For half and hour every morning and evening, they can't stay in their wealth-bubble. Plus, having the subways as such a free space means you get treated to some pretty cool shows there too. Travelling underground on the weekends you can buy sweets, listen to mariachi bands, watch break dancing, and much more without even going out of your way. It’s like a lovely, creative pic’n’mix. You can make eye contact with people on the New York subway, too. Sometimes people say words to eachother. OMFG.
- The pervasion of left-wing propaganda: It’s shielding me from the tide of fearsome Republican announcements probably coming straight from the Deep South to the U.K., striking fear into the hearts of informed British citizens. Living here makes it hard to believe the polls are near tied. I forget the size of America and the insignificance of the Williamsburg electorate, most of whom are probably too hipster to vote anyway. I’m potentially in for a shock on election day
- The soldiers in Grand Central Station: They always wear camouflage even though it doesn’t help them fit their surroundings. I never stop finding that amusing.
- The surprising lack of pigeons for such a dense and crowded city
- The abundance of public water fountains
That list awkwardly fizzled pretty quickly. I don’t think
the tourist board are going to be hiring me any time soon. And despite the scant
nature of my ‘good-things count’, I still find it hard not to end my positive
post with some kind of final cutting remark; an injection of balance is needed in this overly optimistic and celebratory piece, this unapologetic, unrelenting
cringe-fest of HAPPY. Perhaps I see the
bad in everything. Or perhaps I am unfair to America. On reflection, I think it’s
the latter. I have a feeling that what made me study the States, and what made
me come here, wasn’t deep interest and passion, but a wild obsession which
has transfixed me from afar for years. I didn’t come here with the intent of
immersing myself in the culture, but rather as a curious observer; someone with
a morbid fascination with spray on cheese and the electric chair. Rather than
dismissing them as marginal and not worth my attention, as I might do with the
EDL for example, I lap up American right-wing vitriol about ‘slut-pills’ and ‘legitimate
rape’, and spew out my resulting outrage in big Daily Mail headline font. With
the concentration of a child sitting over an ant with a magnifying glass, I sat
on twitter late into the night, awaiting the judge’s verdict on Troy Davis. Fox News is my equivalent to voyeuristic 80p gossip magazines. In
my first year of uni, I remember being ever so slightly disappointed, after
being told that a new girl had moved into our halls from Georgia, to discover that
she didn’t have a southern-drawl, red-neck politics or bible-belt religion, but
was actually the friendliest, nicest new flat-mate any of us could have hoped
for. So I suppose I am incapable of observing with balance and
sincerity. I seek out the strange, maddening aspects of things, and am constantly in the mode
of sarcasm, looking to be provoked. And that has made me represent you unfairly,
America. I am very sorry. I know you have moderate politicians and unbiased
media outlets, and normal, agreeable people. But they’re like the quiet child
in the class that does all their work without a fuss and so gets no attention.
The naughty ones like Rush Limbaugh and Sarah Palin with their hands in the air
throwing their books on the floor, telling on the immigrants and blaming the ‘abortionists’
for 9/11 are unfortunately impossible for me to ignore.
So how did I do, Mark? I feel like I might have failed. I
hope you will believe me when I assure you that despite what my writing might
suggest, I am not spending my whole time in New York City holed up in a dark
room, writing snide hate-mail to the outside. If you were looking for some
reassurance that I’m not depressed or sad, but am really getting an exciting
and new experience, please set your mind at ease. Angry and ranty happens to be
my modus operandi, but please don’t take me too seriously.
(If you were just trying to make me a bet, then I owe you a beer.)
This is a picture taken from East-River State Park in
Brooklyn. If you jump the fence, there’s a wall by an old warehouse that you
can climb to and sit right on the East River, and see the New York Skyline. The
Empire State Building was just yellow that night, but it shines a different
colour for special occasions. Sitting there, it’s hard to forget where you are.
See that massive glow in the sky? Like a dangerous chemical
attack, or space-time cracking? That’s the light from Times Square. That’s the
effect on the sky every night; that’s the amount of energy being consumed and
spat out by that small section of land 24/7 365. I mean fuck. Just Fuck.
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